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Saturday, December 09, 2006,5:52 PM
sigh.. another depressing practice session... argh.. just feeling so disappointed and angry with myself!! I just dont understand why the rest of them can just play tt well BUT NOT ME!! I tried to play, but i just catch up as fast. Whatsmore the running notes?? I have nvr seen such thing in my sec sch life. And seriously, this is my 1st time seeing this?? Laugh if u want. I'm really too depressed to say anything. I guess the seniors there must be feeling that i'm so hopeless?? I don't know. Even i myself feel that way, so i dont see a reason why they don't think tt way.
ANother appalling thing i heard from the instructor was tt they're going to practice the set piece only in March?? Like omg?? Isn't tt a bit too late?? The compeitition is just around the corner?? I think i'm in such a deep shit??
But on the other hand, i really wish i can play and learn from them. It's really nice to be part of their big family and stuff. ANd i have been hoping to join this big family since i was in sec 1, but sadly i didn't get to. I just joined a family that just couldn't be bothered. Sometimes when i go for band prac, i just feel like crying. The attendence there is simply too pathetic. Sometimes the whole section can be missing!! So ya, eventually we cant move on and learn new things. I believe this cycle will continue until one day they realise something has to be done??
OK.. enough of my rantings.. just ignore this post if u think it's crap. I just need a place to vent all my thoughts. So dont mind me. Sigh.. i guess i'll just have to try and i believe i can make it?? hahx. wish me luck.
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