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Thursday, November 24, 2005,11:39 PM

wHat's wRong??

wHat's wRong??

today viv sms me, so we started to message each other. so she kept groaning in pain... lol.. viv, u jux have to endure the pain... maybe i'll try to get to NUH if possible!! hahax... so she asked me to help her buy ear-stick, so i have to make a trip down to Great World City. so before i set off, i packed my room and found that there's 1 stack of waste paper!! gosh!! no wonder my room was like in a mess!! hahax..

so i jux shop around, so i just popped into the OP shop. because i'm alone, so i'm already quite timid, and the sales girl was like starring at my outfit!! OMG!! i quickly get out of the shop man! so.........!!!! so later i went off to Tiong Bahru Plaza, bcuz i need to get PVC roll. so i'd been phoning my mum for like.. 1 hour?! and it kept saying that the user is busy!! wth!! so i jux went straight there myself. i went to buy my things and shop around again. i was like quite shocked to see there was 2 new shop - More Than Words, Petz corner. so i popped into More Than Words... and i bought 3 pairs of sockx!! lol.. and later i felt my stomach growling and i settled down at KFC. and in the mean time i try to contact my mum, and FINALLY the line got through!! so i read my bio notes and waited for her. i just realised that i was really slow, by the time my mum came, i jux read like onli 2 page???!! gosh!! so damn slow!! and later i bought a bottle of aloe vera juice!! heex... so nice!! yummy!! hahax..

so when i got home, i was thrilled to see a letter for me!! hahax!! i received the edusave merit bursary!! wooo hoo!! so i think i can get 250 bucks??!! better than nothing!! heex... anyway i'm not money minded hor!! =D so later i wrapped my books, and suddenly i couldn't hear!! oh gosh!! and i was like trying to make noise to try and listen.. but all i could hear was a very screeching sound... but after a while.. i'm fine. another thing is that i think i have to wear specs soon. couldn't see as well as before, my view was quite blurish. shit lo!! wonder where do i get the money from to make one. haix. and noot from my sis, she wun offer help. but i still remember that i helped her to pay half of the price for twice!! but when i told her, she was like, "are you sure? don't anyhow claim that." aaRRgggHHH!!! and i still remember once, i picked up a 50 dollars note at my grandmother's funeral and i actually gave her the money to buy her files. and i think i'm too gullible. she only bought 2-3 pathetic ring files, and does it worth 50 bucks?? where is the remaining money??!!

another issue. i'm quite pissed off with my sis!! NO!! SHOULD BE VERY!! she's like so idiotic..! now she kept using the excuse that i get to use the com when she's having the O level!! wth!! and whenever i asked her something, she will ask me to go away or the best thing is SHE WILL IGNORE ME!!! if i know she would react this way, i shouldn't have helped her so much when she's preparing for her O's lo... so unfair!! sometimes when is not my fault, i get scoldings from my parents!! aaRRgggHH!! and when she's in good mood, she will tell you this and that.. she always says that i have mood swings. is all bcuz of her own doing!! make me felt so angry when i'm even writing this post!! aaRRggHH!!

haix.. i really duno what had happened to me!! can anyone tell me?!! am i suffering from some kind of disease that everyone shun me?? GOSH!! and for a moment, i felt quite upset over some issues. haix... i'm like a problematic teenager!! AAAAHHHHHHHHH!!! how i wish i wasn't born into this world!! maybe is just my retribution to suffer here.

anyway today i noticed something weird about my mum. she's like so scrimy. that day she hand me 7 bucks, and now she asked me where is her money... sometimes i'm wondering whether i'm spending too much of her money. esp when i got 50 bucks to buy books. and she doesn't want to get a job!! haix.. and today my dad looked so worn out, and kinda weird. i jux duno how to describe it. is it my fault?? and i heard i came to this world BY ACCIDENT!! haix...

so at nite, i chatted on the phone with viv for like 1 hour. so we have fun laughing over the phone. hahax!! and we discussed and talk about our problems that we have and stuffs. i'm glad to have her as my best fren!! and i still remember we were like loggerheads during sec 1 n 2!! hahax.. wonder what makes us such a best fren!! =D